Friday, July 25, 2014

From A to B

Time to write. Next week I go to Davis for a consultation to confirm I am a candidate for a cochlear implant. A year ago my exact words were "not just no but hell no".
How did I get from there to here? It's been a long process and a short one when you consider what is at stake - but I am getting ahead of myself. A year ago I was plain scared, for one. And I had fairly new hearing aids, I assumed I had some latent cognitive processing thing going on. This year, well a lot has happened this year.
The biggest thing that happened is my Dad passed away. I won't go into the gory details but let's just say for a very long time we had a very troubled relationship, But I made a point to try to get to know him as a person. He was the perfect boyscout and lived to take care of my Mom and whatever she wanted. He lived his life fearlessly, and I really need that in my life, its been ten years now Ive been hiding in my hole.
Prior to my Dad's passing we always talked about me getting a Harley I could hang his 1960 Harley sidecar on, particularly to allay concerns about my balance issues. Well after my Dad passed away, it became a tribute mission, and we made it happen. I just sent this to a friend I haven't talked to in about six months. As follows.


Hi XXXXX! I hope this finds you well and you will let me know how you are doing. quick update!! got a harley.
hung 1960 sidecar my dad left me on it to compensate for balance issues. Harley is a centennial edition (2003) police bike 1440cu. (I haven't been outta third gear yet and had a reverse gear installed)
In the process I realized I made a promise to my dad to take care of my mom. Our plan was to share the motorcycle.
I had a lightbulb moment and realized if I didn't get a cochlear implant I could not safely operate monster motorcycle.
Next wednesday the 30th I go to  Davis for confirmation that I am an excellent candidate, They will schedule surgery (outpatient) and 2 weeks later they will turn it on.
Then I will have super powers! muhahahahahahhah
no seriously, then I have to retrain my brain. As long as you all don't sound like Stephen Hawking I think I will be fine!  :D
Pretty exciting eh? I think so.
Miss you, hope to hear back from you before I go to Davis.
Love and Hugs,
Rhonda Z

PS: See the heart shaped shadow on the sidecar? I like to think of that as Dad's stamp of approval :)